I don’t want to say what I am –

doing, this is the thing.

I don’t want to be held to what I’ve said.  I need a continuation of my own freedom – that means I need to make my own decisions.

I’ve been trying to work that one out for years – what ‘freedom’ meant to me – I so much had to have freedom when I was young – oh, twenty-odd.

But I didn’t know what I meant by it.

It was a feeling but, now, I have a definition.