That’s something of a weird thing to say.
Why shouldn’t I be struggling through the days? Haven’t I a right to be struggling as much as anyone else?
To be feeling a little down and able to say so?
And for that to not be a dirty word?
Except it is.
Writing in loops here, and through anxiety, but don’t worry, I’ll be okay.
That is something that you, if you are me, don’t want to look into.
But it’s anxiety, and probably attached to other issues rather than just to the NaNo.
I’m probably filtering deep anxieties through the NaNo – because this is what I do. I know that. I know myself that well.
But I decided to do the NaNo as something through which to continue this quest of finding myself, discovering what those anxieties are in my deep-down places that sometimes cripple me.
I must hunt them out.