I work alone.

Yes, I can work in a team – but that is something I’d say in an interview if I was desperate for a job.

But I’d have to be desperate – I am starting to admit to these truths about myself – that might make me seem less desirable as an – adjunct, I suppose – in society but which – well, that’s me.

I once told a friend in all earnestness that I would make a good hermit.

And he was surprised – would you?

And I have imaginary post-apocalyptic thoughts and, sadly, I have come to the conclusion that you would survive more readily if you were part of a community.

Gosh! I don’t like challenges. I’d better say it again because it seems, from posts I’ve glanced at, that everyone – just everyone – has been challenging themselves.

Don’t you know, by now, that – give yourself goals – challenge yourself – you’re likely to come up short?

I have an idea where I would like to be next – having looked over and printed out ‘Diary 2018’ at least – I did want that completed before the year 2019 was out, but I won’t manage that – but I did say to myself that –

I would finish that before I went on to looking back over writing I did long ago.

It’s weird stuff, is that.

Wrap up ‘2018’.

Leave ‘2019’ for now – I’ll never get to The . . . unless I deliberately leave that – as a ‘checked over; printed out’ –

There are times when you take a leap.

I’m going to do that, but I know from experience – leave something and it’s difficult to get back to it.

Therefore, whatever you leave (I’m talking to myself again) make sure it is at a point where it can be left – where it is safe to leave it (talking to you now) –

Yes.  I’ll do that.

Must I finish ‘2018’ first?

I’m only in ‘March’ of it.

We’re having a quiet Christmas this year.

My not-so-well husband and I will stay at home on Christmas Day.  (He has said it is okay to mention him here, sometimes.)

We have been invited out but, last year, it was so difficult . . . (I won’t say everything – there is a certain amount of respect for his privacy that I adhere to).

This year, we have no decorations up – my husband has been a hoarder and we are still working through all that and – literally – there is nowhere to put the tree, the space where it used to go being taken up now by . . . new furniture to make things easier for him.

I have some tete-a-tete daffodil bulbs on the window-sill in the front room in the place where I have put the odd small ornament in years gone by.

And a blue hyacinth bulb starting to grow in a hyacinth vase.

I’d rather have those than Christmas paraphernalia.

In the back garden is the frog-house (yes, you can get them) that my sister got for me for my last birthday, and a broken large terracotta pot buried partly in, for another.

They come over sometimes from next door where they have taken up residence in Godwin’s shallow water-tray.  I haven’t said anything to her, but they will die if they can’t get deep, or sheltered, if we have a hard winter.

I have the two pot-ponds buried deep – those I was going to have on top of the ground before I discovered there were still frogs.

I have sent out all my Christmas cards.

I write on, relentlessly, trying to find my way.

People are busy with Christmas preparations, and I don’t care about it.

I’m still getting over NaNo, and I feel as though no one is bothered about that, now, but I have the odd post I wrote back then – actually, only early this month but that seems such a long time ago – that I couldn’t publish (in the WordPress way) then – and need to now, so I can move on.

‘Blog – Friday 6 December 2019.

‘Gotta round it up.  Gotta round it up.  Gotta . . .

‘I was old in there – my real, old self.

‘Give up on it!  Give up on the pretence!

‘Told you so!  Told you so!

‘Shad up!  Shad up!  Shad up!’